Yesterday I had no choice but to try and eat actual food as we were out and I was starving. By that I mean not puréed in a blender. I ordered the spinach, sweet potato and goats cheese pie (Square Pie – Bluewater), which is apparently also Kate Moss favourite. Not forgetting a side of mash potato, just incase I could not manage the pie. It was struggle and I constantly had to wipe my face and lips as I could feel the filling leaking out of my mouth. The crispy parts of pastry I avoided as a piece got wedged and almost made me choke.
It’s nearly 6 weeks since I have had my operation, and normality should return. So fingers crossed in the next five days I will no need the drugs to block out the inconvenience. The lack of food has helped me loose weight for which I am grateful, but I believe it has also made me ‘Hangry’ (angry due to hunger) as I constantly seem to be shouting at the boys. I do feel guilty afterwards, but by that time it is too late as it cannot be un said.